"Omg It`s Wyclef !"

Yesterday ihave to say, had to be one of the best day`s with Jennifer. But knowing all our little adventures, things are never right at first. Our plans were to go to this audition for commercials and TV shows, but that plan did not go to great. I mean all we needed was parents ( which Jennifer forgot to add that little bit of detail ) but since we only had our manager with us we couldn`t stay. Like wow dude that twas like highly embarrassing. Like idon`t normally get embarrassed but they got me this time, lolx. I mean there will be a next time for sure so i`m not feeling too bad. But after that little embarrassment, our manager decided to stop by the studio cause Jen asked him about whether or not Wyclef Jean was still there. But to our surprise when we arrived On Bloomfield Ave. Guess who was standing outside of the studio, if not Wyclef Jen himself. But to add onto more embarrassment you had Jennifer in the front seat screaming "Omg it`s Wyclef!"...ohhh man ihad to sit there shaking my head because ididn`t really feel that was necessary, but it was heller funny though so idon`t really care. But any how our manager introduced us to him ( cause they basically grew up together ) and we ended up chillin` for a while and took some pictures of course ! imean like come on how could we not?

But one of the highlights ihave to say is when Jen and iwere in the studio and like this girl just kept hitting me, like the lame she is lolx, and itold her if she didn`t stop iwas gonna punch her in the face ( me being the person iam ) and Wyclef walked passed and was like "Fight, Fight, Fight!"..Now me being the person iam again ihad to look at him all cross eyed ( <--it`s just an expression )first, cause iwasn`t understanding lolx but ilaughted anyways cause ithought he was a mess of a man ( doesn`t mean anything bad, it just means ithought he was type silly ). So after listening to one of his new songs that ihave to say is now my favorite!( not tryna say the name cause it`s not my job to that before it even comes out ), my manager, his new born baby boy, Jen, and I went across the street to the all you can eat buffet. Oh Man! did ieat!...whaaaaaaat?! like it was so serious Jen and I had to hide our plates so people wouldn`t see us. But at the end of all that, ithink i`m the only one who ACTUALLY finished my whole plate. Don`t judge me though dude, cause what is food made for...if not to eat? And to end this amazing day, Jen and I went shopping for a while on Main St. And on our walk home, some sexy 21 year old hot piece of chocolate stops us in his hot ride to try to get at me, LMFAO* imean i`m the type to keep walking and ignore them without thinking twice about it, but Jen wanted to stop and see what was really up with him ( just cause he had a car )....smh....imean he`s cool though he had me dying ( laughing of course ), the way he asked me on a date twas so adorable, but......i`m not quite sure if iwant to take that road. To end this on going "novel" yesterday had to be one of those days that goes on my list for best day ever!

It`s Only The Beginning

So i`m really beginning to see what it is that God has instore for me and for my future. Okay for those who don`t know i`ve been recording in the studio for the past year or so, making music that expresses my feelings ( so on and so forth ). Through all the dreams i`ve had at night about about following my dreams, slowly but surely there becoming reality. So far Jennifer and ihave posted up one song, just to give people a taste of what`s coming called "If You Don`t Love Me" - which can be found on youtube or here on my page in my playlist. But moving on with my entry.....

Well yesterday Jen and i literally dropped our lives in SV to rush to Jersey for a video shoot. Sad thing is that, Jen`s mom took forever and a day to get to Jersey so we definitely ended up missing it. But on the plus side we`re going back to do our part next Saturday. I mean don`t get us wrong we were upset a little cause majority of our day we`ve been sitting in cars and driving like dude that`s like extra stressful on our part, you don`t even understand - butt cramps are NOT poppin ! lolx. but it all became okay when a group of children in the van with us heard our song and was getting extra hype about it - omg-ness that right there babe certainly made my day.....What a life!

Any who, tonight we both have to go perform our song at some actor`s party thing ( lolx ideeknow ;don`t mind me ). Hopefully we have a great time cause ibrought a new dress and these poppin` heals - hopefully ican upload them sometime this week, and iam so ready to dress to impress. SO EXCITED !.....wish us luck ( fingers crossed ).

A Day With The Big Sister ;Double-E

As we are a week from multicultural day, my sister &* ihave have decided to go get our alfit together at the Palisades Center Mall. imean zamn we had a blast! ;it was funny as well, cause every store that had a sign that read "now hiring" iwent &* applied for it. imean can you blame me though?...ireally do need a job - i`m sitting here doing nothing at home at times ;don`t get me wrong my life if busy with the studio stuff &* cheerleading, as well as school but the job thing is needed for all those activities, but that`s besides the point. we got some food to eat and caught up on the drama &* shid that`s been going on. ifilled her in on everything cause itrust her with my life zeadass. We called Jon to come get us, &* this boy was acting mad reckless &* was complaining about how hungry he was. So we went upstairs to some juice store, &* icould have sworn iseen Steeve starring at from the other side of the mall. Steeve is a kid who use to live at my grandfather`s house but as we grew up, we also grew apart - &*developed some type of hate for one another. But oh well, when Elourde &* ifinally got to her house we put on our alfit`s &* just started acting a fool. We started dancing, &* of course ihad to eat something lolx.

Oh YESS* the web cam was on deck..making video`s as well as taking pictures &* chattin on oovoo with nico - that was the funniest part of the night ihave to say. Elourde &* iwere entertaining her to the fullest with our craziness hahaha!

ihave to say that twas one of the best nights that ihad with her. &* i`m zeadass phinna miss her when she goes off to college - so for me ifeel as if it`s my dutty to spend as much time with my big sister as ican. iloveyou Elourde with all my soul boo*MWUAHS{ !!!!!! } HIGH FIVE:)

A Letter To God

As iwas just a little girl ilet everybody tell me what to do.
I wanted to be like her, her, &* oooh her too{ ! }
Until the day irealized that ;iain`t gonna let nobody bring me down but myself.
Cause islowly learned ihad nobody else but myself.
So iheld my head up really tall,&* told everyone-*
"I`m independent ;N E V E R shall ibe dependent."
But sometimes it feels like ineed you here.
Most of the time ijust wonder....{ ? }

Lord can you hear me calling out for you{ ? }
At times ifeel as if it`s just us two.
While istruggle &* pain ;you protect me through the rain.
You always held me down, kept me strong.
Always wore your crown, taught me right from wrong.

Now lets cut to the chase ;for this is a serious case.
Now the subject is my mother.
UGH{ ! }
I desperately need some space.
All ido is wake up, &* she gets pissed.
I feel as if idied right now-*
Sadly......iwouldn`t be missed.
Sometimes iwonder...
"Lord is this a life leason{ ? }"
If so...it slowly got me stressin`.
I beg &* plead for you to help us get better.
......No answer.
Soooo...is that a never{ ? }
We were never close ;but inever thought it would get this bad.
( Tears roll down my face )
DAMN{ ! }...inever felt so sad.
They all say-*
"Mimi keep your head up"....
"She loves you"....
"She doesn`t mean it"....
Now how the H E L L would you know, are you going through it{ ? }
....Yeah ididn`t think so.

I pray to you every night Lord ;&* yet my spirit remains low.
H E L L O{ ? }...
God can you hear me calling out your name{ ? }
The tears flow every night-*
&* i`m quickly losing in every level slash aspect of this game.
AH{ ! }
Whatever...the games over, idon gave up.
Come get me tonight Father ;iwanna go up.

Now the subject are friends.
Notice how it "ends"{ ? }
Their gone Lord, their gone.
The year of twenty ten.
Thought this was suppose to be a good year.
UGH{ ! }
Will this nightmare ever end{ ? }
Best friend told me...
"No, mimi keep your faith strong. Never shall the Lord do you wrong."
He`s right, he`s right.
I think ican, ithink ican.
Oh no Lord{ ! }
Their fading away ;&* all ican do is stare.
The pain is running deep-*
&* it`s too hard, it`s just too hard to bare.
YES* i`m selfish{ ! }
I DON`T WANNA SHARE, I DON`T WANNA SHARE, I DON`T WANNA SHARE{ ! }
Lord why have you seperated us all{ ? }
Why should irise ;when all ido is fall{ ? }

The devil asked me-*
"Have you lost your faith yet{ ? }"
I responded-*...
"No satan, not at all.
I may bruise &* scratch ;but iknow God got my back.
You can`t tempt me, although your wicked.
Your too evil so you can lick this.
Lick the pole to your dark hole ;for you will N E V E R capture my soul."

Now the subject are girls.
Why do we constantly hate{ ? }
Jesus you see the timeline, when did we reach this state{ ? }
Short skirts with the butts all out.
Hmmm...shakin` my head, what`s that about{ ? }
....No don`t answer ;cause ialready know.
You do it for the men, but they see you as a hoe.
Jealousy, jealousy corrupts the mind.
Yet, she calls herself one of a kind.
But didn`t she just call herself a barbie{ ? }
....Isn`t that Nicki Minaj{ ? }
WOW, snap snap - your F A K E.
&* no i`m not sorry.
Lord why can`t we be the women you created us to be{ ? }
When did we get so blind that we couldn`t see{ ? }
Why are we so hard headed ;&* act so tough{ ? }
When did female`s play so rough{ ? }
Why do we strive to wear the pants-*
instead of lending eachother a helping hand{ ? }
Why do we feel so lonely without a man to call our own{ ? }
Why are we so focused on their different skin tone { ? }
Father, why aren`t we lonely when we don`t show up to church{ ? }
Why don`t we feel bad when we feel the need to curse{ ? }
The devil is running the minds of your daughters.
They seem to be falling for a man named Carter.
Wayne Carter with the tatts all up &* down his back.
( Sigh )...the key to hell ;&* that`s a fact.
Walking down the hallway like-*
"Ew she fat{ ! }. Why she ain`t rockin`cloths like mine{ ? }
Now that i`m wearing Polo-Gucci-Prada-Coach, iknow i`m fine.
B - I - T - C - H is the was to go.
&* if you ain`t loud &* obnoxious ;then i`ll make you feel low."
Are we not all one in the same{ ? }
So what makes you better{ ? }
Having sex with him, him, &* maybe even her{ ? }
Talkin`to some ignorant boy, braggin`bout he can get you wetter{ ? }
Really{ ? }....
Lord why has it come to this{ ? }
Getting STD`s just from a dirty kiss.

Now for the word that rhymes with "crys","lies",&* "sighs".
...Yeah that`s right ; G U Y S.
For those who smoke weed just to get high-*
Thinkin`they problems is just gonna fly by.
For those boys that play the heart like a toy.
Finally getting the power ;&* using it just to destroy.
For the ones that are blinded by her sex appeal-*
Not realizing, it takes time for her heart to heal.
They say...
"Cheating is the way of life. You do your dirt, then run back to wife."
But is she`s R E A L L Y your main-*
Why waste your time with the other lame{ ? }
God, i`m down on both knee`s cause this makes no sense.
This bullish ihear ;keeps ringing in my ear.
&* they wonder why my feelings stay trapped behind an electric fence.
They say ineed a "M A N" who will do me "R I G H T".
But from the way isee these planes crashing &* burning...-*
I rather not take that flight.

So did you hear me Father{ ? }...
Am ibeing heard{ ? }<3*/.

Difficult - Confusion

When first lookinq into those beautiful hazel eyes.
That smooth lookinq face,
I thouqht isaw somethinq in him - that no one could replace.
So quiet,
Yet so shy,
In my mind - the most perfect quy.
But what came to my surprize ;was that he was F.A.K.E.
All that cuteness went to waste.
He knew how to play it well.
Had you qoinq to sleep - dreaminq of weddinq bells.
I`m fallinq hard,
But ihave no idea where it is i`m landinq.
He left his nine month relationship,
And now he`s with me.
Lord have mercy !
We made it to three.
This relationship is pointless.
We're just breathinq air.
His ex-qirl is fiendinq - but irefuse to share.
He`s so confusinq,
And the fact that he doesn`t show love ;is diffusinq.
Everyone knows,
Everyone see`s,
Why is everyone countinq on me?
HELLO !
I`m wifey - not he !
*Forqet love...
Whatever happens, happens
And i`ll just let it be.

He was my beautiful niqhtmare.
Somethinq that he ;and all the ex`s shared.
Beautiful liars...
Yeah, yeah riqht there !
Make me believe every word,
Make me beilieve that you can rock my world.
White skin..Liqht skin..Dark skin ;whatever.
At the end of the day,
You`ll still be the same - now and forever.

Dark skin poppin`...
My late niqht crush.
Don`t want to fall in love with you ;i`m in no rush.
People hate me, hate me
But you want to date me?
Confusion runs wild ;like a hyperactive child.
Oh man !
Your taken, your taken=:/
I must let qo !
It`s hard to chanqe the channel - on your favorite show.
Your body is banqin`- somethinq like a model.
If iwas a dude,
( no homo ]*/..
You`de be my idle.
I`m not quite a younqin`- there`s a three year difference.
If you qive me a chance,
You won`t lose no interest.
But wait, but wait !
Your taken, your taken..
As iwalked away slowly - sliqhtly shaken.

Mister liqht skin on zeck...
I actually liked you,
With them pretty pink lips ;oww!
You was fly too?
All ireally wanted was to qive you a try.
Hey !
Maybe this time you would be the "Perfect Guy"?
But oh, how wronq was i - iwas livinq a lie.
For all you really wanted was to - take me on a sex ride.
Hmm? sorry babe,
Cause ionly rep for the "V" side.
So all them late niqhts ;was just a waste?
For you don`t think with your mind.
But, with your lower waist.
Mister flirtatious is talkinq to the whole NY...
Come around me - then wanna be "My Guy"?
Mister flirtatious is talkinq a whole lot of bullshit...
I`ve been there, done that, heard all of it <3